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"You, as formless Witness (Samntabhadra), are one with the entire World of Form (Samantabhadri), and it is forever an erotic union. You are literally making love to the entire world as it arises. The brutal, tortuous gap between subject and object has collapsed, and you and the world have entered an intimate, sexual, ecstatic union, edged with bliss, radiant in release, the thunder and lightning of only One Taste."

"Everyone is a moon and has a dark side which they never show to anybody…"

My intention, for now and the time to come, is to throw myself into these canyons and oceans with heartfulness and reverence, to not let myself be dissauded by terror nor bliss, and to love infinitely.

I am: an aesthete, a hedonist, an intellectual, a perfectionist, an obsessive, a libertine, a dreamer, a loner, a romantic (if some of this seems contradictory for you, I can only explain it terms of mind-body duality). My perpetual knack for self-destruction has fostered a necessary humour towards my earthly existence. But don't be fooled: my reverence and faith far exceed my sardonic skepticism. Thank God.

the painting animation scenes in the thirty-three video + end of school dinner at primadonna with LM +african jazz bars in paris + summer thunderstorms and your boyfriend's eddie bauer fleece + hungarian poetry + staying home on a frosty november sunday with a joni mitchell cd and oil paints + montreal jazz fest 2002 + girls in pretty white outfits in the summer + daisy and istvan + converse all stars + 11pm dinners with the laydeez at ginger + autumn sweaters + louise's montreal thanksgiving suppers + le 2's mojitos+ fresh basil and tomatoes + hallucinogenic fasts with morris on yom kippur + hushed conversations in the car at night when everyone else is asleep + colette on rue st honore + toronto private school kids + plateau boys +BC boys + jewish boys+ fuck i love boys + the dreamers + montreal girls (the jappy ones, the sephardic ones, the eurotrash ones, the artsy-grubby ones, the waspy ones) + getting drunk off really good sancerre at lunch + lester + domaine de rochevilaine, france + love will tear us apart + bologna-venezia 2001 with jess and megs + laura's hands when she's singing opera + howling at the mexican moon + naked gossipy sauna sessions at la cite + cuddling on hotel-de-ville with deborah and ricky + mare's apartment in westmount in first year+ mikey + dobs, shmobvs + big c, koko, captain, big bee and jbear's epic fabric-belgium-barcelona-cadaques feat of summer 2002 + the sloppiest triple date ever at wakamono, good memories though + but i haven't got a stitch to wear + tearing shit up at the SAT for entrepot launch 2004 + 3737 st hubert + when it starts snowing and the frigid air dissipates + mcgill friday afternoons + fall crushes + shirin neshat + silver shoes + movement at roxy blu when it was good + film lounge atm machines + solipsistic art + olio + shklar on rousseau + martha c. nussbaum + electric kisses that leave you spinning + songs in the key of life + fred everything's parties at salon daome + saturday nights at rosalie in fall 2003 + love bites + pink suede + knowing looks + big dramatic fashion + tom cruise sunglasses + the polar bear club + the helmet and hoover + semper-vivus + smoking my first cigarettes in a golden fall in paris when i was 13 + six feet under + sisterly antics + black and gold (and drunk all over) + pledge cocktail + my croatian love with black-coffee saucer eyes + human voices wake us and we drown + i guess this must be the place + 'hello, you've reached bill cosby' + cafe l'imprevu + magritte island + miami reading week 2004 + big fat fall fashion magazines + blasting 2pac in the car + sushi and prosecco parties + talking with 2 good friends until 6am instead of going out + satin pajamas + big bowls of oatmeal on frosty mornings + pad thai and parties at the bamboo + aria 02-14-03, aria 08-08-03, aria 09-20-03, stereo 02-14-04 + del mar beach + diesel hush jeans + magic + last chance for unicorns 21st birthday party + corsets + the idea of order at key west+ marissa's dinner parties + just bling it + manhattan in 1989 + chalk on the barbie and other halloween fiascos + daryl hannah in wall street + la dolce vita + 'i want you in my hair, i want you on my thighs, i want you in my bed' + olivier martinez + lazy afternoons in NDG + making banana bread, drunk at 4am + never being boring + confessional MSN conversations with neil + OAP + sending letters on pretty stationary + sandman + 'hip hop is cool but house is a way of life' + eleanor, you've lost me in a haze of wine and cocaine + you're all i notice in a crowded room (i swear)+ for all the sweetness that has followed me everywhere i've ever gone and everyone i've ever known who is still down + for everyone who was around with their strong arms and endlessly open hearts when i found myself fool enough to almost be it, cool enough to not quite see it + i am so grateful, whatever i did in my former lives, 'it must have been something very great indeed', because i have been blessed a million times over